The Prisoner (of Fate & Chaos), by Eric Wayne, 2017.

More thoughts after days of ruminating on this topic, and various challenges to my arguments on my blog and elsewhere. Note that if you disagree with me, or have in the past, that’s perfectly fine. I’m more interested in understanding reality than I am in being right. If I were to suddenly switch my pro-free will position, that could include a delicious insight into the nature of being. I’ve found that several people I’ve engaged with on the topic conflate free will with freedom and independence, and here I will articulate why they are not the same thing at all (though you can only achieve freedom with free will).

I’ve been criticized for not explicitly articulating what I mean by free will, so I’ll address this immediately. It is the ability to make a deliberate decision, and presumably to act on it (though if you can control your thoughts, you still have free will). It means that you are in the driver’s seat, and you are in control of your mind and body. Note that this need not be 100% of the time. Rather, the burden is on the determinists to prove that you can never freely control your mind or body – because they argue it is impossible to do so – in which case it needs to be impossible 100% of the time.

Something’s been bothering me about certain evidence behind the determinist stance against free will, namely that experiments have shown that the brain makes decisions (albeit minor ones that require no complex thought) before we consciously make them. I have strong criticisms of the extrapolations from these experiments, but there’s also a curious philosophical conundrum to deal with. If the reason we don’t have free will is the brain makes decisions before we do, than what are we fundamentally if we are not our brains and bodies?

If I am my body/brain, and the brain makes decisions before the consciousness, why not just say that the body has free will – hence I do – but not the conscious mind? Part of the answer is that in order to have free will a decision must be made deliberately, and for something to be deliberate, it must be conscious. The other part, of course, is that the body has no control over what it does, because as a physical thing it is bound by the laws of physics, and every action is the inevitable consequence of the proceeding one. The determinist would argue that the brain makes a decision first, unconsciously, and then it appears in consciousness after a brief delay.

In brain/consciousness theory, the so-called “hard problem” is how an immaterial mind can control a material body. Never mind for the moment how a material body can control an immaterial mind. I have another hard problem. How can an unconscious body make decisions about that which it is not even conscious of? It’s a bit like saying that brain sees things before the eyes look at them. Sees with what? The brain would have to be aware of what was going on in order to make decisions, but this awareness would have to be separate and prior to our experience of it. This is a bit sticky, but I can make sense out of it by defining consciousness as the awareness of being aware, or self-awareness. Determinists would have to argue, though I have not heard anyone say this, that decisions – including the most profound ones – can be made by an aware brain without the benefit of self-awareness. This might make sense for more instinctual acts, reflexes, and fast-action sports. An insect, such as a praying mantis, has awareness, and thus can act physically in the world, but it doesn’t, as far as we know, have or need self-awareness.

This is a good place to crack the limitations of the experiments showing subjects making decisions before they are consciously aware of it. The decisions in all such experiments revolve around when to perform this or that minor motion, and usually rely of self-reporting. Brain imaging shows brain activity before the subjects were consciously aware of making a decision, and in one experiment scientists could predict whether one would move their left or right hand in a competitive activity before doing so. This is not surprising when regarding inconsequential physical activities. Not only does my brain move my left foot before my right while walking before I think about it, it does it without me thinking about it at all. Certain actions, including presumably every action in the life of insects, require awareness, but not consciousness, and hence not conscious decisions and free will.

It’s anecdote time. When I was around 10 years old I went to my brother’s little league practice. The coach was hitting fly balls to the team, and he recruited me to catch all the balls when the players threw them back towards home plate, so I could give them to him to hit again. This was challenging for me because there was a lot of action, and for whatever reason, I really wanted to make a good impression on the coach. I distinctly remember that my tactic was to NOT think, and instead focus with a clear mind on catching the balls. I surprised even myself in my sudden mastery at fielding every wayward pitch from the outfield. The point here is there is that which can be handled by awareness, and that which requires conscious deliberation. At the same age, when I played chess, I couldn’t just empty my mind, but rather had to work it up into a lather and concentrate, prefiguring various possibilities, and making very deliberate choices.

You can’t write a novel grappling with the human condition if you can’t think about the fact that you are a living, perishable, human being in an often hostile physical universe, and what all that means in various scenarios. The physical brain can’t write a novel without access to conscious experience on which to gather understanding and insight.

Selfies From Alternate Universes # 18: The Cure, by Eric Wane, 2018.

Self-awareness can only take place in a state of self-awareness, in which case it is impossible for the realization of self-awareness to take place in the unconscious brain before conscious realization. A self-aware unconscious is impossible, obviously, because you can’t be conscious of being unconscious, or even aware of being unaware. The brain manifests a state of consciousness, and uses this state to make self-aware decisions in real time – we are that glorious, immaterial state. In that state, the brain can operate not only on a plane of awareness – like the praying mantis – but of self-awareness and self-determination.

The determinist’s conceit that who we are resides in the conscious mind, rather than the unconscious body, undermines the foundation of their argument, namely that as material beings we are bound by causality to obey physical laws and act in accordance with all that has happened before. The argument that we are material beings ironically includes as evidence that decisions presumably take place before our immaterial, conscious selves register them. If there is an immaterial, conscious mind that subjectively believes it makes choices – which are actually made a fraction of a second before by an unconscious body! – it is a given that we are not just a material body.

The brain may choose my next movement in a game of ping-pong before I think about it, because that only requires awareness, and not self-awareness, but can it finish this article about free will without the benefit of being self-aware? Some might want to argue that the brain IS self aware, and I’d agree absolutely, but that self-same self-awareness of the brain is what we experience as consciousness. The brain can’t be self-aware without consciousness. Thus, it is impossible that choices which require self-awareness can be made prior to conscious intent by the brain before it is conscious of them. We’d need for the brain to have a separate consciousness that isn’t the one we experience as our own.

One could argue that the brain collects information from consciousness, and then uses that information to make behind-the-scenes decisions. This is a tricky argument because it’s necessarily the case that neurons fire without our consciously telling them to do so. Does the mind use the brain to think, or does the brain use the mind to think, or both? The biological mechanics of making thinking possible happen unconsciously in the brain, and the brain doubtlessly unconsciously processes information retrieved via consciousness. But there’s a differene between the underlying mechanics of how the brain produces thought, and the abstract systems by which the mind manipulates thought.

Many people argue against free will because we don’t have any control of many of the most important factors in our life: when and where we are born, who our family is, what our own body and disposition are, our intelligence and capabilities, as well as large scale events such as wars, epidemics, etc. Free will doesn’t mean that we can break the laws of physics, perform miracles, have unlimited power, or be gods (depending on how you define “god”).

Since this is a rant, I’m going to go on a little aside here. Relative to all the inanimate, unconscious things in the universe, which neither have agency nor the appearance of it, can’t think, can’t reason, can’t use language, can’t use memory, and don’t have an imagination, one could say that consciousness, with its dominion over matter, is godly. Compared to a rock, or a tree, something which flits about in defiance of physical laws that keep everything else in lockstep is a transcendent miracle. Surely, if there were a God, we’d expect that it was conscious, and had free will. We share these most essential qualities.

Sadly, we humans, despite our consciousness and free will are rarely truly free. We find ourselves born into a world where we are almost immediately ensnared in a system where we must work full time so someone else can make the lion’s share of the profit off our energy, and we are taxed. We use a language we didn’t coin; wear sometimes ridiculous clothes that are the fashion; listen to whatever music the industry is peddling; and obey social norms that preceded our inception. How many of us break out of the bondage of being a nearly identical clone of millions of other people in the same general predicament, with the same routines, celebrations, and underlying thoughts, biases, and opinions?

To truly be free of mind and body may require some luck and a lot of dogged persistence, risk-taking, opportunities, adventures, periods of introspection, education, probably disillusionment with what one was taught, hard lessons, disappointment, insight, and so on. One might scrape out this space of actual independence and freedom like a prisoner slowly, secretly digging a tunnel from his cell to freedom. To do this undoubtedly requires free will and will power, the latter of which can be cultivated (just as we can train and improve our bodies) using the former.

Selfies From Alternate Universes # 17: The Prisoner, by Eric Wayne, 2018.

Free will is just the capacity and the burden of making decisions, and acting on them, virtually incessantly. Whether we can ever succeed at clawing our way to actual freedom and independence is a separate issue.

When we look back out lives, or those of people close to us, we may not want to take full responsibility for our every mistake, mishap, bad choice, failure and shortcoming. If we truly had free will, we may think, certainly we would have been more rich, successful, even famous. But while we have freedom to choose, we don’t have the freedom to choose our choices. Nor do we have the freedom do decide when in life we must make many of the most important choices, or if we have adequate information and education to make the right choice in the moment. There are many things I’d do differently if I could take my life over, but that doesn’t mean that every misstep was exactly my fault. I had to navigate the options I had available according to my knowledge and understanding, and most of us just don’t get red carpets leading to prosperity. Studies have shown that most born into the lower third of the economic bracket stay there, and the same is true of those in the upper third. Free will doesn’t give you the cards in your hand, nor the ability to play them. It just gives the ability and the necessity to pick. For each of us, any estimation of what we’ve done with our lives would have to come with the caveat, “under the circumstances”. Free will doesn’t mean blaming oneself for not being dealt a royal flush.

Lastly I’d like to hit on why we have free will despite causality. Simply put, causality applies to physical things which are always, to the degree they do anything discernible, reacting without choice to prior causes. It would be ridiculous to think that snow in an avalanche had any other option than to cascade. It doesn’t have an opinion on the matter. The mind, however, is an immaterial, experiential state. This is what the determinists miss. The physical operations of the brain must obey the laws of physics, and those operations include creating the field of consciousness where self-aware thought occurs, but it does not include the laws by which the thoughts themselves operate. Reason and logic are separate from physical laws, and so when we think using logic, our thoughts are not guided by unconscious biological impulses, but by abstract rules and structures. Because the mind is not physical – science can’t find consciousness, nor can it be subjectively denied – it is not bound by laws that apply to inanimate, unconscious, unthinking things.

The only case against free will is this confidence that because everything else besides the human mind is bound by causality, so must the human mind be. This ignores that in all of the universe (excluding animals for this discussion), the only thing we know of that is even remotely capable of free will is the human mind. How can we conclude that the only thing we know of that is immaterial (even if it is dependent on the material brain), and that has consciousness, intelligence, memory, imagination, reason, and so on, is bound by the same laws that apply to its antithesis: unthinking inanimate objects?! [Others go to the opposite extreme and suppose that because we are conscious, so is everything else, and independent of a highly complex brain.]

In conclusion, [even the determinists acknowledge that] who we believe we fundamentally are is the immaterial mind; this mind is not bound by laws which apply only to physical things; and even though our choices are limited, we are not only able to make them, we are unable to not make them. True freedom, independence of thought, and individuation require not only free will, but will power. To deny free will may be a fascinating mental exercise, but it’s also shooting ourselves in both feet and accepting bondage.

For us visual artists, one of the few places we can hope to achieve freedom is within the rectangle of the canvas or picture plane. This is a territory where we can exercise full control; evolve our independence before our very eyes; manifest it for others to see; and in so doing help them to liberate their own minds from mental constraints. If we are lucky, freedom in art might lead to acquiring enough financial benefits to allow more practical freedoms (such as not having to work as a subordinate in someone else’s business, being able to travel, visit museums, take time to read the classics…).

[For this article I chose artworks which were about a lack of freedom.]

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12 replies on “Freedom and Independence Versus Free will

  1. Very interesting writing. A few thoughts I have about your writing that I’d like to share from own experiences. I served in the military and then as a Police Officer in a large city. I’ve been in peak physical shape, yet, I’ve pushed through the physical limitations where my body had given up long ago. When you’ve pushed past your own “mind” which also had its limitations. It became clear that free will, willpower, your spirit, your soul, is far capable of doing things far beyond what physical reality says can’t be done. We had a saying during those times, “we don’t do something because we have to, nor because we need to, we do so because it’s required”. You can push far past the limits of your body and your mind. I’ve been there many times, but it really sucks though.😁

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    1. “It became clear that free will, willpower, your spirit, your soul, is far capable of doing things far beyond what physical reality says can’t be done.”

      And that’s a really valuable life lesson. It’s kind of the old thing about, “when the going gets tough, the tough get going”. It’s probably harder if one just does it without external impetus.

      If one believes we have the power to overcome our perceived limitations, than we are probably more likely to attempt greater things, and set our sites higher.

      Thanks for reading and sharing your anecdote.


      1. I forgot to mention something important… that when you go beyond those limits and capabilities; you, yourself can’t even believe it. So it’s very shocking to you! The people with you that are enduring that same physical and mental pain (it’s even beyond this place) have also gone “beyond reality”; and they can’t believe it either. And yet, it happened.

        Maybe if I explain it this way, it’ll make more sense. Your body is a machine, your mind is the computer driving the machine, but your software is something unique all to itself. Unlike a computer, that software (soul, spirit,) pushes through and beyond, so much farther than your machines capabilities. Only then, do you truly begin to see the real you…and it’s not of this reality because it surpassed those limitations and it feels a lot like dreaming, but you’re not…and you will surely see and feel what I’m describing…that “freewill” as you described… it’s unreal. And giving up isn’t an option because you’re dead if you do. But like I said before, getting to that place where your “soul, spirit” comes forward…it really sucks!
        Great bit of writing though because few have truly experienced what I’m saying and I think your description of this is very close. Closest I’ve ever read anyways. Keep up the great writing! Back to painting for me.
        – Matt

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      2. I think I got it. You are talking about the first hand experience of the spirit overcoming the limitations of the flesh, so to speak, and then also realizing that one is fundamentally the spirit and not the flesh. This is something one would more likely, it sounds like, encounter in extreme situations.

        You mentioned, “And giving up isn’t an option because you’re dead if you do.”

        There important practical lesson here being that we are capable of much more than we think, mentally and physically. Some might argue that if it is a life and death situation, one doesn’t have free will, because one doesn’t have a choice except to do whatever it takes to survive. It’s not unusual to see animals do incredible things to survive, or protect their young. A possible counter would be that when really pressed, and in the moment, one gets kicked into overdrive and engages the free will to overcome all obstacles (or attempt to). One may in fact have the choice of giving up, but not if one wants to live.

        But we can’t wait or external circumstances to prove free will to us. Is it possible to use this phenomenon positively in our daily lives, when we are doing chores, working our workaday jobs, on our commutes, and so on?

        I’m sure would couldn’t sustain that sort of peak experience, especially if it “sucks” to go through it. But it is good to reminds ourselves that we can go there if need be. And we can still try not to get lulled into complacency in our daily lives, when everything seems to be going along without too much effort, and we just need to clock in some hours. That existential threat of death is still licking at our heals, and we can be more engaged, proactive, and determined in our daily struggle, and set our sites higher. Or, that’s my take on it anyway.

        Hopefully I won’t have to experience this peak realization of free will and spirit over flesh anytime soon, not just because it sucks (presumably because it’s so hard), but because it would mean I was in a life threatening situation!


      3. Yep, you got it! Exactly!

        I suppose if you used this idea in your daily life, you’d be speaking more towards being “disciplined”. Being disciplined has some of the characteristics of doing stuff you don’t want to do, yet sticking things out, and or never giving in, etc. (Not really the same thing though)

        I suppose it was discipline that kept us in the fight, and perhaps it was also discipline to not give up or give into quitting, but honestly it was something far more than that…it was “spirit”…it was “freewill”. It wasn’t even the strong desire to live, because even those feelings pass over long periods of time. Some of my encounters lasted for days.

        They use the term fight or flight a lot which is what I think you were getting at, but that’s an immediate response. I’m speaking about what you stated perfectly and was completely on point…the spirit overcomes the flesh.

        You’ve exhausted fight or flight long ago. You see the “real” you and it’s quite shocking, unbelievable, and surely a religious experience (without all the traditional meanings of that word).

        That “real you” is “freewill”, “willpower”, or “spirit”. Unlike animals, humans are aware of the choice they make even if it’s the basic live or die experience. Animals & humans alike wear down and give in easily in some aspects, but what I’m speaking towards is only human. Like a deer hunter who has to track down the deer because the deer hasn’t realized he’s dead yet (not what I’m saying at all).

        There’s quite a lot of stuff that goes through your mind believe it or not during longterm stressful situations. There’s a difference. You’d be surprised to know, MOST humans will give in, quit, accept their outcomes, etc. especially when it comes to long periods of time.

        Obviously for me, it was during “extreme” intense high stress encounters, but I suppose one could experience something similar or close by being completely stubborn towards being disciplined in their daily aspects of their lives???

        I think you might have the “freewill”you spoke about… but only in the sense of …”I will” or I “wont”. Doubtful you’d see your TRUE spiritual self, and your TRUE potential in that spiritual way that I was referring to.

        For me, it was that reality that we are far more than our minds and our bodies. People go their whole lives without realizing what they are truly capable of becoming or doing (and not just in the physical sense either). We are really special creatures. I am glad I I experienced that part of myself, but I hate how I had to experience it. If this makes any sense?


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      4. Thanks again for sharing those stories.

        Yes, as you said, I’m focusing on something a little more pedestrian, which is just hammering home if we can actually make deliberate decisions or not. But I think your take about humans under extended stressful situations is relevant and interesting.

        I understand what you’re saying, so I’ve glimpsed it here and there, under different circumstances. Because I’m an artist, I look for these kinds of clues in people’s art. Not for specifically what you are talking about, but in general about how they address the nature of being.

        As you probably know, from quite the other end of the spectrum, a lot of existentialists deeply pondered human nature in relation to things like boredom. Not my cup of tea, though neither is testing my metal under extreme situations, but over the course of a lifetime, there are many ways to brush with reality and glean what our true nature is (though people will still differ on how they interpret that).

        Essentially, I’m agreeing with you that the spirit — even if you just use that as a metaphor — is in charge of making decisions, not the physical body. Marshaling one’s will power to do extraordinary things in order to survive and overcome obstacles is going to convince people that we are not just blindly compelled the physical and biological forces, but usually only if it happens to them.

        Our default mode of thinking about humans is very bland, abstract, and book-learned. As your stories hint at, a deeper understanding of who and what we are must be had through experience, and may even require extreme experience.

        Best wishes,



    1. I’ve done whole pieces where I just followed my imagination unfurling and tried to intervene as little as possible. Considering my stance on free will, I’m pretty big on using the subconscious to help me make art. Often, I’ll just stare at something until the next change comes to me. I might see it in my mind, and then try to do it.

      Right now, though, I’m working on one of my most deliberate pieces ever, so perhaps I’m moving into a stage of more deliberation and control. Maybe that’s just a stage while I level up my skills, because I really enjoy just working from my imagination on the fly.

      Good luck with your painting, and thanks for reading and commenting.

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  2. You will see my painting maybe next blog. I do really love your art no matter conscience or unconscious (maybe two sides of the same thing)❤️

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  3. Re your Little League anecdote–it reminded me of one of those “you can do it” types of motivational speakers I saw decades ago, can’t remember his name. Anyhow, I was on the crew doing a rehearsal for a satellite broadcast of his method and he picked some random folk out of the stage/video crew to illustrate his point. He asked anyone who had trouble catching a ball if they wanted to participate and see if they could become adept at it in just a few minutes. First he threw out some balls to them, and they fumbled the catches perfectly. Then he instructed them not to “keep your eye on the ball” which is contrary to common advice to anyone trying to catch one. Instead, he said to look at the stitches on the ball as it came toward them and try to determine which way they were rotating. The experimental catchers were looking so closely for a rotational sequence that they ignored the fact that they were actually trying to catch a ball and got every toss successfully. Don’t know how that relates to the above discussion, but I found it intriguing–his point was that you can sabotage yourself needlessly by kowtowing to your preconceived beliefs. If you believe that you are a lousy ball-catcher, then you will be. Change the script and the result changes too.

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    1. Interesting anecdote. I wonder if that could be used for Little League coaching. I think the overlap is that if you are concentrating so hard on the stitches that you aren’t thinking about how to catch, and you are just doing it.

      Similarly, when I was taking some Karate lessons when I was in my late 20’s, my instructor mentioned how kids will attempt anything. If you tell an adult to do a spinning back kick, they have to do all this analysis and try to figure it out, and don’t believe they can do it. But kids will just go for it.

      Thanks again for reading and commenting.


      1. I do believe that what you wrote above was the point—you aren’t thinking about how to catch, you are just doing it. This was 20 years ago so I don’t remember exactly but your words rang a bell.

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